so i just got back from La Nucia, Spain!
it was so0o beautiful! I really had time to think over there, everything is so much more relaxed than over here.
Theres no sign of stress lol... 

i really need to get away from Glasgow.
Dont get me wrong i love this place so much, but, its too stressful for someone in my state.
What i mean is ive been constantly freaking out with anger and frustration, the worse part is i dont know why!? 
I always get myself into a bit of a state when it comes to my weight, but never like this!
I hate my job so time just drags in whilst im there. To top it off im flunking college and now i only go to get out of the house. Im not even sure its what i want to do with my life anymore... 
I just have no direction when it comes to my future anymore...
Anything i had planned has just been shattered!
And i know its my weight thats holding me back i know if i sort that out ill be happy with all aspects of my life!
I just know it! 

And talking to my mum is like talking to a brick wall!!! 
She just doesn't get it! i said to her "im flunking college, its not what i want to do anymore" and all i was looking for some advice and all i get is "WELL YOU CAN JUST TAKE YOURSELF AND GET A JOB THEN!!!" 
shes just so hard to please and it kills me....

Downloads

Am I dreaming? - Kat DeLuna ft. Akon . . . 

ok if you have been living on another planet for the past few months, have no internet connection or been trapped on a desert island then you have yet to hear of Girlicious! ;) x
Robin Atin (creative director and producer of the pussycat dolls), started a search in america for the next PCD inspired group, and from that she found Chryst, Nic, Nat & Tiff who make up GIRLICIOUS! Personally, i love the band!! Nicoles voice is so origional and something about it most certainly captures you. Not only can these four girls sing, they are the U.S's hottest dancers and their style must also be commented on!
I love how they mix things. They are young, flirty and sexy but not too over the top!
I cant wait to see how they blossom!

Anyways my bed arrived yesterday i totally love it ;) my room is nearly finished thank god its about freakin time :P 

Todays downloadsz

Flashdance- what a feeling :P (in a sing along mood)
Fabolous- return of the hustle
Fergie & nelly- party people

Well ive heard this about this site and i think its the only one i have never actually tried out. Bebo, myspace, facebook, xanga been there done them lol... 

So lets use it to its full potential. 

I basically wanted somewhere to blab my thoughts, feelings and daily going on's. So it brought me to here...

I spent most of today working on the imfamous fashion portfolio which has taken over my life the past few weeks.
Ive been having designers block, my designs just aren't up to scratch, its like a holt bottom has been pressed on my creative convare belt. 
My creative side is what makes me who i am and right now i just dont feel like me. I dont know if its all the stress of trying to bring together a whole portfolio or the weather. :( i do suffer from seasonal depression, i swear i do! My college attendance drops during winter, i gain a tonnee of weight and im just generally unhappy. I was having a good few days there when the sun was shining but its back to thunder, rain and hail in oh so bonny scotland. 

On the other hand i applied to a few colleges in London today :D and doing so really brightend my mood! I look forward to moving away, meeting new people and having a fresh start! I think i need that. 

On other news my new bedroom is finally piecing together quite nicely. The wallpapering has finished, Carpet was layed today and my new Bed arrives 2moz :). Im a little annoyed about having to wait for my wardrop for another week but its worth it. Ive searched weeks for the perfect and largest wardrop i could fiind. It really will be worth the wait. It has funky storage and hide aways, perfect for my growing collection of clothes and accsessories :D ! I just now need to order my new Desk/Vanity table and my room is complete. Voila tres tres chic... :)

4 weeks on friday im away to spain not long to go. Time for my final ditching of the fat ass attempt lol... weight watchers goes out the window and starvation begins. lol... ok not as dramatic as that but its time i gave myself a final push. i mean why settle or silver when u know you can reach the gold eh? :) anythings possible just never let go of those dreams. Im a firm believer in that.

A good friend of mines works in the music industry and his mixtape launch in next week. Im very much looking forward to celebrating the release with him. Hes worked very hard to get to where he is today. He is blessed with a great talent, i mean the way he can string verses together out of nowhere is more impressive than a magician pulling a white rabbit out a hat, you never know whats going to come out this guys mouth i find it fascinating :)

i use to post little lists of tracks i think people should download n have a dance too so here goes, mains well keep my tradition going...

PLAYLIST!

Kat DeLuna- run the show
Brick & Lace- love is wicked
Che'nelle- Hurry up
Brit & Alex- Let it go
Lil Wayne- Lollipop
A.B.- the way i are (mix) ft. Hydro 

"Suddenly so many ladies wanna get down now with mr AB, oh man i must be lucky AB baybees feeling so horny. OPPS! im sorry what i ment to say is that AB baybees feeling so lonely..."